Now I
don't wanna hate you
Just wish you'd never gone
for the man
And waited two weeks at least
Before you let him take you
I stayed true
I kind of knew you liked the dude
from private school
He's waiting for the time to move
I knew he had his eyes on you
He's not the right guy for you
Don't hate me cause I write the truth
No I would never lie to you
But it was never fine to lose you
And what a way to find out
It never came from my mouth
You never changed your mind
But you were just afraid to mind out
But fuck it, I won't be changing
the subject I love it
I'll make your little secret pub
lic it's nothing
I'm just disgusted with the skeletons you sleep
with in your closet to get back at me
Trapped and I'm lacking sleep
Fact is you're mad at me because
I backtrack so cas ually
You're practically my family
If we married then I'll guess
you'd have to be
But tragically our love
just lost the will to live
But would I kill to give it one more shot
I think not
Recently I tend to zone out
Up in my headphones to
Holocene
You promised your body
but I'm away so much
I stay more celibate than in
a monastery
I'm not cut out for life on the road
'Cause I didn't know
I'd miss you this much
And at the time we'd just go,
so sue me
I guess I'm not the man that you need
Ever since you went to uni
I've been sofa surfing with
a rucksack
Full of less cash and I guess
that could get bad
But when I broke the industry
That's when I broke your heart
I was supposed to chart
and celebrate
But good things are over fast
I know it's hard to deal
with and see this
I tend to turn you off and switch
on my professional features
Then I turn the music off
And all I'm left with is to pick up my personal pieces,
Jesus
I never really want to believe this
Got advice from my dad and he
Told me that family is
all I'll ever have and need
I guess I'm unaware of it
Success is nothing if you have
no one there left to share it with
And since you left,
I've given up my days off
It's what I need to stay strong
I know you have a day job but
mine is 24 7
I feel like writing a book,
I guess I lied in the hook
'Cause I still love you and I need
you by my side if I could
The irony is if my career
and music didn't exist
In six years, yeah, you'd probably
be my wife with a kid
I'm frightened to think if I depend
on cider and drink
And lighting a spliff I fall into
a spiral and it's
Just hiding my misguiding thoughts
that I'm trying to kill
And I'd be writing my will before I'm twenty sev en,
I'll die from a thrill
Go down in history as just a
wasted talent
Can I face the challenge,
or did I make a mistake erasing?
It's only therapy,
my thoughts just get ahead of me
Eventually I'll be fine I know that it
was never meant to be
Either way I guess I'm not prepared,
but I'll say this
These things happen for a reason
and you can't change shit
Take my apology,
I'm sorry for the honesty
But I had to get this off my chest
I don't love