Yo, I don't know what it's like
to be addicted to pills
But I do know what it's like
to be a witness it kills
Mama told me she love me,
I'm thinking this isn't real
I think of you when I get a whiff
of that cigarette smell, yeah
Welcome to the bottom of hell
They say pain is a prison,
let me out of my cell
You say you proud of me,
but you don't know me that well
Sit in my room,
tears running down my face and I yell
Into my pillowcases,
you say you coming to get us
Then call 'em a minute later
just to tell us you not, I'm humiliated
I'm in a room
with a parent that I don't barely know
Some lady in the corner watching us,
while she taking notes
I don't get it mom,
don't you want to watch your babies grow?
I guess that pills are more important,
all you have to say is no
But you won't do it will you?
You gon' keep popping 'til those pills kill you
I got this picture in my room and it kills me
But I don't need a picture of my mom,
I need the real thing
Now a relationship
is something we won't ever have
Why do I feel like I lost
something that I never had?
You shoulda been there when I graduated
Told me you love me and congratulations
Instead you left us at the window waiting
Where you at mom?
We're too young to understand
where you at huh?
Yeah, I know those drugs got you held captive
I can see it in your eyes,
they got your mind captured
Some say it's fun to get the high
but I am not laughing
What you don't realise
and what you not grasping
That I was nothing
but a kid who couldn't understand
I ain't gon' say that I forgive you
cause it hasn't happened
I thought that maybe
I feel better as time passes
If you really cared
Our last conversation,
you and I sat in the living room
Talking 'bout my music
and I brought you something to listen to
You started crying, telling me this isn't you
Couple weeks later,
guess you were singing a different tune
You took them pills
for the last time, didn't you?
They took you from us once,
guess they came back to finish you
Crying my eyes out in the studio is difficult
Music is the only place
that I can go to speak to you
It took everything
inside of me to not scream at your funeral
Sitting in my chair,
that person talking was pitiful
I wish you were here mama
but every time I picture you
All I feel is pain,
I hate the way I remember you
They found you on the floor,
I could tell that you felt hollow
Gave everything you had
plus your life to them pill bottles
You gave everything you had
plus your life to them pill bottles
Don't know if you hear me or not,
Sometimes I think about like
Sometimes I think about things like,
you know
When I'd have kids, I'm like... like
You won't be there, you know?
You won't be there for any of that
And I'll never get to see you again
Sometimes I wish
I would've just called you
I wish I would have just picked up the phone
I wish you were here
I mean you should've been there for us
You should have been here!
Them pills got you, right?!
Them pills got you, right?!
I wish you were here
