Wake up in the morning,
notice something ain't right
'Cus although the sun is shining,
there is no light
I open up my curtains, wipe the sleep from my eyes,
too tired to realise I've lost my sight
Blinded by my ignorance, I prepare my self for the day,
thinking this sinking feeling will go away
As I set off on my track, the little voice in my head says "turn
back," but when I want to turn back it's too late
Darkness surrounds, me drowning me in sorrow,
'cus I know today will be no different from tomorrow
Hope is quickly fading, soon I'll be too far gone for saving,
my soul will go and leave my body hollow
And still in the face of adversity, I search for an inner strength,
try and stand firm with both fists clenched
But I can't find my heart, it's like the fucking thing's deserted me,
it used to be there, this makes no sense
So I pray to a God that I'm not
even sure if I believe in
To help me in my hour of needing
and keep me breathing
I pray to this God that created
a place called Eden
A paradise to put Adam and Eve in
But I don't think he hears
me speaking
I'm starting to weaken
Now I'm reaching for what's fake
Poison in my body to escape
Suddenly I'm overwhelmed with optimism,
my shoulders no longer feel the weight
It's fake 'cus I know the smile on my face is only
there 'cus I'm too intoxicated to care
Inside my soul I can't find no hope,
just a gaping hole where it used to be there
An unmendable tear
That when I'm sober hurts
more than I can bare
It just ain't fair
And soon I'll be back in normality
When the poison wears off and my whole bodies
aching from the pain of reality
The pain of reality, starts to grab at me
Love is a fallacy and I'm staring straight at death
as it tries take another stab at me
I'm down on my knees
And I'm begging
"Someone hear me,
please answer my questions?
"Why is my life just one
big deep depression?
"Is this God's way of teaching
me a lesson?"
Forgive me Father for I have sinned
This is my confession
I do bad things and I don't
know why I do 'em
I try to do good deeds but people
see right through 'em
I can't ge't close to no one,
'cus they won't let me
How can I feel like a man
if they don't respect me?
Is that my heart I feel starting to sink?
As the more I talk,
I'm starting to think
That maybe I feel this way because of the mistakes I've made,
and it ain't got shit to do with no one else
I can only blame myself
It's me who's bad for my health
And only I can rectify what is wrong
in my life if only I tried a little bit
Harder
It all comes down to a choice,
what would I rather
Stay how I am
And watch the days get darker or forgive
myself? Get on with my life
And not
Look back after.
