Don’t even know why I have a phone
Nobody hits me up and I’m stuck, never had
someone that I could call my- own
It’s lonely walking down this road
Fake friends that I didn’t have to know
The same ones that fucked me over and
whenever I need 'em and I turn around
I feel I’m at an all-time low
I am depressed and it hurts me to know
My ex is happy and I can’t seem to cope
She’s ignoring every text message I wrote
My anxiety's high, my medication’s low
I am so stressed and I hate being home
I sit and overthink everything alone
I wish I had somebody to hold, damn
I’m sick and tired of putting up a front
Like I’m happy, but really I am in a slump
I try to stay strong, screaming,
But if anybody would give it, then I'm the one
I wanna put down my walls and open
I hide behind this rapper I’ve become
Addicted to bein' accepted’s like a drug
No one’s here, I feel like I’m ready to plunge
I remember you said my music was wack
and the drive is what I lack
maybe I could never be a part of rap
Well, I ignored that, I said,
Over twenty million plays,
I didn’t need a label to give me a chance
The day I sell out an arena
I'll feel like I’m the man
Buzzin' hard, but to find nothing
Never found someone who really loves me
A few plays later, now they all see something
The same guy that is from the start
The same guy my ex left with a broken heart
The same guy who turned music into his art
who dreamt of bein' a star
I’m twenty- two, and I won’t let myself down
I stood up right after I fell down
when you know you're Hell-bound
I never really opened up and that’s until now
I hope that I never lose you
If I could choose one person,
I hope you understand my pain
that we all gotta go– through
I hate being down this road
I feel like I need you more
Since I was seven years old
My future’s all I’d imagine
I look back, I’m screamin', "Damn it"
This the life, I never planned it
